Joel knows the two of them are going to spend the next nine months reading every book they can get their hands on, every single book they can possibly find and he also knows everything they read will offer differing opinions on every single topic under the sun. He knows they're probably going to spend more than a few confused evenings trying to sort out what they're reading from what they really feel, they're going to have to spend a lot of time trying to establish where they lie on certain issues and even then he knows things will come up that completely surprise them. There's no possible way for them to be completely prepared for what's ahead, but he knows they'll both try. Neither of them will be able to go into this unprepared, without having done research, that's just the type of people they are. He's grateful for it, too. He thinks another person might find it annoying how much Joel needs to know about something before he tries it, before he dives headlong into any situation, but Spencer understands. Spencer always understands.
"I'm sure we'll have plenty of questions," he agrees with a soft breath of laughter and it suddenly feels like the entire day is catching up with him. For a moment, all he can do is sit there at the table, his hand still on Spencer's knee, and stare at the drink he's barely touched. They're actually going to do this. They're going to create a baby with this woman who's selfless enough to want to share this gift with them. One of them is going to be the biological father of this baby and Joel realizes it doesn't matter to him in the slightest who it is. Whatever happens, he's going to be so happy that they have a baby, he's going to be so overjoyed, so overwhelmed with love that none of that will matter.
It seems like the sort of thing that's so far in the future, something that's still out of reach, but he knows once they start this process, the time will pass by so quickly that the baby will be coming before they know it. They'll never feel ready, they'll forget things, they'll panic when Erin goes into labour. It will all happen so fast that they won't know how the time has passed and yet right in this moment, Joel feels like it can't possibly happen fast enough. This is his future beginning to spool out in front of him and he wants it now. He wants to be selfish and impatient and he wants it all right now.
"I'll be happy to answer them," Erin answers, smiling at them both and there's something fond in her expression, something Joel isn't used to seeing from that many people. "We can talk about all those details later, right now I think we should just be celebrating that you two are about to embark on one of the most rewarding chapters of your lives together."
Joel's mouth twitches into a smile and he can feel himself growing emotional, his eyes threatening to well with tears. All he manages it a nod, looking down at his coffee again, the drink long since gone cold, and his hand tightens on Spencer's knee once more.
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Date: 2014-10-20 01:20 am (UTC)"I'm sure we'll have plenty of questions," he agrees with a soft breath of laughter and it suddenly feels like the entire day is catching up with him. For a moment, all he can do is sit there at the table, his hand still on Spencer's knee, and stare at the drink he's barely touched. They're actually going to do this. They're going to create a baby with this woman who's selfless enough to want to share this gift with them. One of them is going to be the biological father of this baby and Joel realizes it doesn't matter to him in the slightest who it is. Whatever happens, he's going to be so happy that they have a baby, he's going to be so overjoyed, so overwhelmed with love that none of that will matter.
It seems like the sort of thing that's so far in the future, something that's still out of reach, but he knows once they start this process, the time will pass by so quickly that the baby will be coming before they know it. They'll never feel ready, they'll forget things, they'll panic when Erin goes into labour. It will all happen so fast that they won't know how the time has passed and yet right in this moment, Joel feels like it can't possibly happen fast enough. This is his future beginning to spool out in front of him and he wants it now. He wants to be selfish and impatient and he wants it all right now.
"I'll be happy to answer them," Erin answers, smiling at them both and there's something fond in her expression, something Joel isn't used to seeing from that many people. "We can talk about all those details later, right now I think we should just be celebrating that you two are about to embark on one of the most rewarding chapters of your lives together."
Joel's mouth twitches into a smile and he can feel himself growing emotional, his eyes threatening to well with tears. All he manages it a nod, looking down at his coffee again, the drink long since gone cold, and his hand tightens on Spencer's knee once more.