For some reason, Joel hadn't expected that at all and when he feels Spencer's fingers on top of his own, helping him, guiding him, he groans and drops his head, pressing rough, open mouthed kisses against Spencer's shoulder and his collarbone. He can already feel his muscles shuddering and he wants so badly to just be inside Spencer, but he needs to take his time. The last thing in the world he wants is to accidentally hurt his husband in this body -- or ever -- and so instead of getting ahead of himself, he shifts his hand, replacing his fingers with his thumb, continuing to rub against Spencer's clit. And the very thought of that makes him feel dangerously close to the edge, the thought that he's touching his husband like this, that they get to experience a whole new kind of intimacy, it's overwhelming.
It's his first instinct to reach for the lube, but he realizes a second later that he doesn't have to. Spencer doesn't need it, not right now and Joel groans again when he realizes just how warm and wet Spencer is. "Oh my god," he breathes, his fingers teasing gently before he slowly presses one into Spencer's body and he has no idea how he's still functioning. He has no idea how his brain is still working, not when it feels like something must have shorted out, because this is unlike anything else he and Spencer have been able to do and it isn't that he doesn't appreciate Spencer's body as it is, because he really, truly does, but this is all new. This is his husband and it's all new and Joel doesn't know how he's supposed to deal with that. This was never supposed to happen, but now that it has, now that he's no longer terrified that something awful has been done to Spencer while he was sleeping, now that he's sure this woman in his bed is truly his husband, it's incredible.
"God, Spencer," he groans, pressing his finger deeper inside before he pulls back and then adds a second. He's fucked Spencer with his fingers before and he remembers having to go slow at first, so he does it now, he takes care with his new body, because whatever comes, whether or not they can change this, he wants Spencer to know he'll always be good to him. It doesn't matter if he goes back to his own body later today or next week or a year from now, Joel will always take care of him in every possible way he can manage it. He'll never hurt him. His fingers pump in and out slowly and he's not sure how he's doing this, how he's retaining any sense of control whatsoever because Spencer's body is so tight and wet around his fingers. It's like he's burning up and Joel gasps against Spencer's throat, trying to remind himself to go slow, that they have all day, that he'll never want to hurt Spencer. His thumb continues to move over his clit, letting Spencer guide him a little, letting him tell Joel what feels good with his fingers, because Joel is very willing to take direction.
He presses kisses down Spencer's throat again, across his shoulder and then lower, finding his breast, finding his nipple again with his lips and his teeth and his tongue. This is just one more thing he could do all day, he thinks, his teeth closing down on Spencer's nipple, teasing more than anything. He doesn't bite down, not too hard, and presses his fingers deeper at the same time, wondering if he can make Spencer come just like this and then make him come again. While he loves Spencer exactly as he is and would never wish to change him, the thought that today, at least, he can make Spencer come again and again, possibly one right after the other is amazing. And it's something he's going to do. He decides in that moment.
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It's his first instinct to reach for the lube, but he realizes a second later that he doesn't have to. Spencer doesn't need it, not right now and Joel groans again when he realizes just how warm and wet Spencer is. "Oh my god," he breathes, his fingers teasing gently before he slowly presses one into Spencer's body and he has no idea how he's still functioning. He has no idea how his brain is still working, not when it feels like something must have shorted out, because this is unlike anything else he and Spencer have been able to do and it isn't that he doesn't appreciate Spencer's body as it is, because he really, truly does, but this is all new. This is his husband and it's all new and Joel doesn't know how he's supposed to deal with that. This was never supposed to happen, but now that it has, now that he's no longer terrified that something awful has been done to Spencer while he was sleeping, now that he's sure this woman in his bed is truly his husband, it's incredible.
"God, Spencer," he groans, pressing his finger deeper inside before he pulls back and then adds a second. He's fucked Spencer with his fingers before and he remembers having to go slow at first, so he does it now, he takes care with his new body, because whatever comes, whether or not they can change this, he wants Spencer to know he'll always be good to him. It doesn't matter if he goes back to his own body later today or next week or a year from now, Joel will always take care of him in every possible way he can manage it. He'll never hurt him. His fingers pump in and out slowly and he's not sure how he's doing this, how he's retaining any sense of control whatsoever because Spencer's body is so tight and wet around his fingers. It's like he's burning up and Joel gasps against Spencer's throat, trying to remind himself to go slow, that they have all day, that he'll never want to hurt Spencer. His thumb continues to move over his clit, letting Spencer guide him a little, letting him tell Joel what feels good with his fingers, because Joel is very willing to take direction.
He presses kisses down Spencer's throat again, across his shoulder and then lower, finding his breast, finding his nipple again with his lips and his teeth and his tongue. This is just one more thing he could do all day, he thinks, his teeth closing down on Spencer's nipple, teasing more than anything. He doesn't bite down, not too hard, and presses his fingers deeper at the same time, wondering if he can make Spencer come just like this and then make him come again. While he loves Spencer exactly as he is and would never wish to change him, the thought that today, at least, he can make Spencer come again and again, possibly one right after the other is amazing. And it's something he's going to do. He decides in that moment.