Spencer tries not to let his face fall. He tries not to look discouraged, he really does because Joel had warned him that his mother might be a hard sell at first; but there's a difference, it turns out, between hearing that in theory and hearing that it's true. In a way, he supposes he's glad that he has something that has the potential to be just as traumatizing as what had happened at the lighthouse--and he's being facetious, of course, but he can't deny that the idea of meeting Joel's family next week, especially now knowing for certain that his mother doesn't seem to approve, is quite terrifying. He's never much cared to impress anyone other than Joel before but he wants to make a good impression. He wants to show them how happy Joel makes them, hopes that they can see the way Spencer maybe makes Joel a little happy, too.
The kiss to his palm is calming and Spencer feels a rush of tension leave him with a deep exhale. "I'm looking forward to meeting your dad," he says honestly. As much as it's been seizing him with fear here and there throughout the past few weeks, Spencer really is excited to meet Joel's family. He has none of his own to offer, after all, and he'd never thought he'd have anyone who would even want introduce him in this context, as a boyfriend and as someone important enough to make an effort for.
"Your sister, too," he continues with a slight nod. He already likes her, if he's honest, mostly because he hadn't overheard any sort of protest or discouragement or anything like that during that Skype chat where Joel had first called Spencer his boyfriend. She'd called him cute, which is a bit sweet and brings a flush to Spencer's cheeks just from thinking about it because it's not as though he's heard that often. He doesn't think Joel's mom will be singing his praises when they meet, though, possibly not even for a long time and it makes Spencer's chest tighten with anxiety because what if Mrs. Baker decides she hates him altogether? That he's not worth Joel's effort (which he occasionally still thinks is true anyway on days that he's particularly doubting his worth as a good boyfriend), that he's not welcome to share in their time together as a family.
"I'm nervous about your mom," he eventually admits because he knows Joel won't judge him for saying that or think that Spencer's trying to disparage his mother. "I know you said she needs time to adjust, but I... I want her to like me." He sighs, suddenly embarrassed as he lowers his eyes to stare at his hands still in Joel's. "I know I don't come off as much of a catch."
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Date: 2014-07-06 08:16 pm (UTC)The kiss to his palm is calming and Spencer feels a rush of tension leave him with a deep exhale. "I'm looking forward to meeting your dad," he says honestly. As much as it's been seizing him with fear here and there throughout the past few weeks, Spencer really is excited to meet Joel's family. He has none of his own to offer, after all, and he'd never thought he'd have anyone who would even want introduce him in this context, as a boyfriend and as someone important enough to make an effort for.
"Your sister, too," he continues with a slight nod. He already likes her, if he's honest, mostly because he hadn't overheard any sort of protest or discouragement or anything like that during that Skype chat where Joel had first called Spencer his boyfriend. She'd called him cute, which is a bit sweet and brings a flush to Spencer's cheeks just from thinking about it because it's not as though he's heard that often. He doesn't think Joel's mom will be singing his praises when they meet, though, possibly not even for a long time and it makes Spencer's chest tighten with anxiety because what if Mrs. Baker decides she hates him altogether? That he's not worth Joel's effort (which he occasionally still thinks is true anyway on days that he's particularly doubting his worth as a good boyfriend), that he's not welcome to share in their time together as a family.
"I'm nervous about your mom," he eventually admits because he knows Joel won't judge him for saying that or think that Spencer's trying to disparage his mother. "I know you said she needs time to adjust, but I... I want her to like me." He sighs, suddenly embarrassed as he lowers his eyes to stare at his hands still in Joel's. "I know I don't come off as much of a catch."